Sometimes the ground crumbles beneath you. You thought you knew who you were or what you were standing on, but then your identity gets shaken because of some disorienting moment that reinterprets your past or obscures your future.
Sometimes the sky falls. You were used to looking up to a God who seemed close at hand, who held everything together even when circumstances felt fragile. But then you looked again and weren't so sure any of this really affirms the notion of that kind of God.
I've been reading Moses' story and working with Ben, one of our video producers, on the story of a woman at our church to get ready to teach this weekend, and it amazes me how much we all have in common. It doesn't seem to matter where we come from or when we live; sometimes reality seems too harsh and escape seems like the best option. Sometimes our shortcomings make it hard to trust God to do His part.
Several years ago, I was having a very hard time keeping my grip. I felt like God had promised to see me through the hard stuff I was facing, but those promises seemed faint. I went into the hospital, not really sure where this was headed, and I kept grasping for hope that seemed illusive. The only thing I knew to do to keep my resolve was to sing something (I wrote in my last post that I pray better with songs than silence), so I wrote this song, "whatever it takes", and I've been returning to it this week as I think about all our stories and wonder what God might want to say to us in the next couple of days. You can preview the song here, and if you'd like your own copy, head to the MY SONGS page to download audio or video.
Hope to see you at GCC this weekend!