Sex For Sale devotional | Wednesday, March 18

Yesterday we talked about not running from our desires when we're afraid to face them, afraid to admit how intense or messed up they are.  There's a big difference between running from our desires and asking God to transform them.  More on that later this week still.  

But I wanted to be more personal today.  Yesterday's thoughts weren't disconnected from my own life.  They come straight from my own prayers, my own wrestling matches, my own journey.  So today I thought I'd share with you a prayer that I've prayed over and over again when I'm confronted by how messed up my own desires can be.  When I want to be successful more than I want to be faithful, when I would rather see people worship me than worship God, when I would rather hide in my own lustful thoughts instead of living in real and healthy relationships, I pray this prayer.  

It's in song form, so I've got a video of me performing it that you can watch if you'd like.  Or, if you prefer, I've written out the words below, too.  You're welcome to join me in praying this today.  If you'd like to comment on today's post, I think it'd be awesome if your comment is your own prayer in your own words.  It doesn't have to be poetic or ornate, just sincere.

 
Smallest Part from Jason Miller on Vimeo.

It is the smallest part of me that ever dares to pray
It is the smallest part of me that wants to find a way to You
The faintest whisper is all with which I speak
Could it be that you bend down low to hear a voice so weak?

Will you take the smallest part and make it large?
Will you take the smallest step and carry me far?
The best intentions reside in a corner of my soul
Now I need some help in conquering the whole

It is the smallest part of me that dwells in love and truth
And wisdom seems so frail in the face of my youth
Quiet but pressing is this life inside of me
While death shouts so loud but falters in this peace

Will you take the smallest part and make it large?
Will you take the smallest step and carry me far?
The best intentions reside in a corner of my soul
Now I need some help in conquering the whole

It was the smallest picture of You who came to be with us
And it was frailty that You used to show strength has come
So the smallest part of me is enough for You to start
As Your goodness grows in me and an ally reclaims my heart 

Will you take the smallest part and make it large?
Will you take the smallest step and carry me far?
The best intentions reside in a corner of my soul
Now I need some help in conquering the whole