Sometimes it’s hard for me to trust the blessings in my life. I’m so scared of taking them for granted that I refuse to receive them at all. All I can think about is how likely it seems that the bubble will burst or the dream will end. And it leaves me grasping for security in all the wrong places. This is a recipe for idol worship; I start looking for something other than God to trust. Without ever explicitly stating it, in those moments I espouse one of two conclusions about Him: He is either impotent or sadistic, a weakling or a bully. Either way, I end up leaning on something else to get me through the day.
Last night in our Journey Bible Class, we soaked in Psalm 62. A couple of lines at the end stand out to me:
One thing God has spoken, two things have I heard: that you, O God, are strong, and that you, O Lord, are loving.
Strong and loving. Our God is both able and willing to give us everything we need to live the life to which He has called us. Of course that doesn’t mean I’ll always have what I want. But I know that tomorrow doesn’t threaten any challenge that I can’t endure with the resources He gives. If that’s true, then trusting God is more than a belief system or a feeling, it’s a way of life.
But I forget.
So, like David in the Psalm, I want to learn this way of life by worshiping. For every moment in which I inadvertently embrace a false understanding of God, I want to intentionally choose another moment where I live in something more real and true.
Music helps me worship. If it suits you, you should check out “Your Love is Strong” by Jon Foreman. Toward the end of our time last night, before we stood and read Psalm 62 out loud, we sat and listened to Foreman sing those words with that surfer-cowboy gravel in his voice.
What do you do to remember that God is both strong and loving? How does it move from the head to the heart for you?